This last two weeks have brought with it lots of tears, seemed the universe was sharing the same view sending down lots of rain which we desperately needed, a true reflection of where I had been. One bank told me I was too old for a home loan wanting me to repay in 15 years instead of the usual 30, so once again I have been skidding between "There Must Be Another Way" (ACIM) and making choices allowing the overwhelm to push me over or struggle through and see what is on the other side. Awareness surfaced today as I allowed myself to work with a piece of artwork which triggered an old story where I am brought back to the place of my little girl repeating "Dance for your Daddy", a place where I have been before but in that instance I was unable to see the manipulation, guilt and coercing that was happening for me. I know now I need to stand up and voice my disappointment and stay focused on the outcome, which is having a place of my own and going for it regardless of the odds. What is it Napoleon Hill talks about Desire, Faith, Auto Suggestion, Specialized Knowledge, Imagination, Organized Planning, Decision & Persistence. I find myself missing a few along the way, so I will use this blog to assist me in facing the ones which may be the missing link in achieving my desired outcome. Yes I have the Desire, faith sometimes goes tumbling down the rabbit hole only to surface again when I regain balance. Auto suggestion, now probably need to explore this one a little deeper. Organized planning I am putting together a small deposit and continue to make installments in my savings account.
Specialized Knowledge I have been searching out the best options within my budget seem to have found one Home start although they only lend a small amount this could change in the next 3 months as my income increases.
Yes I have made the decision to buy my own place, and Persistence just because one bank has said no doesn't mean another will.
So here we go I will keep you posted on the outcomes as tomorrow I will set off to Murray Bridge to view some potentials.
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